These are the days I don't appreciate the rain
The constant downpour of "everything will be be okay"
Little drops trying to wash away words that weren't theirs to say
Gray clouds looming loud and plain
Shouts of thunder hush everything away
If only things could stay the same way they were when life held lighter days
A new year hopefully brings some change
The ground is cold and shame overlooks this canvas
The spotlight shines on me
I never thought it was so bright
I guess this is just how things will be
Blind spots have fooled me once again
I'm stuck at home with this paper and this pen trying to justify mistakes I've made that I can't regret
First semester people have their whole lives set on a map while mine is just a scattered mess
Plans of the future roll off their tongues while I'm stuck left cleaning with a dirty sponge
This is just wishful thinking in a pocket full of change
I'll throw my wants into a fountain and I'm only left with disdain for the past and my choices, left unopened on the floor
Everything else that I love is leaving out the door
All the years that I worked for are only adding up to shame
Count up all the evidence; you'll know who's just to blame
I'm tired of swinging up at the cold October air
The only feeling that I want is my fingers through your hair
I won't let my life be wasted
Hope will never fade away
I wish that I could say the same for the plans you shared with me
I'm sorry we ended this all
You ruined my fall
This time it wasn't my fault
credits
from Fingers Crossed,
released October 21, 2014
Written by Humboldt
Recorded by Cody Fuentes of Rapture Recordings
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